Twilight

I haven't finished Breaking Dawn 4th pass yet, lol. But, I'm in the mood to write, so I'm thinking ahead to re-reading Twilight. I'm thinking of the things that I have in common with Bella. I HATE being the center of attention. I think Bella has that in common with Kristen as well, or is that Kristen has that in common with Bella, lol. Every interview she does, she plays with the front of her hair. She is so well spoken though... I regress. I also cry when I am angry. Obviously, sometimes when I am sad too. But, when I am angry, I cry. It betrays me every time, and makes me look weak, and I hate it. One thing I don't have in common is that I am much closer to my dad than I was to my mom. That was always a big regret of mine, but it's way too long of a story to get into here. My mom died in 2004, so unfortunately the time to get closer to her is long gone.

I moved a lot as a kid, and started in new schools often. I hated each change. I never fit in, unlike Bella. I have to admit to a bit of jealousy over how popular Bella became immediately. I guess in Forks, people are different. Not that I didn't make some friends at each school I went to, some of which are still my friends 20+ years later, but never was I an immediate hit like Bella. Then again, if I looked like Bella/Kristen, I'd have been pretty popular with the guys too.

I think that Catherine Hardwicke did a great job of setting Bella up in this first movie, to morph into the Bella of subsequent movies. Obviously when we get to Breaking Dawn, we're going to see a different Bella. I think that downplaying her beauty so that we can see it evolve into her perfect self in Breaking Dawn was masterful. I've heard people ask how they will do that, and to answer that all you have to do is look at the pictures of Kristen in mags, or watch her on shows like MTV Movie Awards, etc. She is just gorgeous, naturally. She had on screen make-up, obviously, in the movie, but not much else. With her natural make-up on, she is model gorgeous.

Well, I'm going to keep on through Breaking Dawn, so I can get back to Twilight. Counting down the days to New Moon on 11/20/09!